Review of Louise Marburg's No Diving Allowed in Fiction Writers Review
Writing as Laborious Play
An essay in Brevity about the traits athletes and writers share in common.
Review of Hari Kunzru's White Tears in the New Orleans Review
The Tourist, the Expat, and the Native: A Traveler’s Approach to Crafting Historical Fiction
How do we navigate, and then translate, the past’s lost and often foreign landscape in a way that engages readers and conveys a sense of immediacy and authenticity? As good travelers.
Fiction Writers Review; reprinted in the Historical Novel Society Review
Fiction Writers Review; reprinted in the Historical Novel Society Review
Communal Guilt, Justice, and Grace
An essay published in The Common Politic. Find a copy of the essay here.
The Gospel Of Cantaloupe
An essay about sisterhood, racism, blind self-interest, remorse, and love in Arc Digital. Republished in The Common Politic.
Mrs. Thomas
Short fiction in Arc Digital - (first published in The Farallon Review)
You Are Not The Special One: A Letter to My Son
An essay MUTHA Magazine
Into The Lake
A talk given at the 2018 Festival of Women Writers in Berkeley, CA
Review of Richard Bausch's Living in the Weather of the World in Ploughshares.
A Short History of My Breasts
An essay in Mutha Magazine
Yep, it's an essay about breasts, breastfeeding, social mandates, female bodies, and the beautiful and unexpected interdependence of mother and child.
Excerpt:
They’re called tits, titties, boobs, breasts, hooters, hahas, bosoms, the focal of point of male fantasy, of fashion (high and low) admired, but, for all the wrong reasons. Call me envious of the well-endowed. Okay, I am a little. But for most of my youth I embraced a kind of athletic androgyny: strong, active, my breasts little more than perky mosquito bites stranded between ribs. Nothing to look twice at. So imagine my surprise, when two years ago, I became pregnant and my breasts grew to assert themselves.
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Excerpt:
They’re called tits, titties, boobs, breasts, hooters, hahas, bosoms, the focal of point of male fantasy, of fashion (high and low) admired, but, for all the wrong reasons. Call me envious of the well-endowed. Okay, I am a little. But for most of my youth I embraced a kind of athletic androgyny: strong, active, my breasts little more than perky mosquito bites stranded between ribs. Nothing to look twice at. So imagine my surprise, when two years ago, I became pregnant and my breasts grew to assert themselves.
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"We" Are Not Pregnant
Mutha Magazine July 2014
About the physical and emotional burden of pregnancy and the impossibility of sharing the experience.
Excerpt:
One day I suggested to my husband that “maybe it would be okay if we tried.” I could have been talking about sushi, or skydiving, or lunar travel. Something safe and final. But the man’s face lit up with unambiguous joy.
I use the word “we” lightly here, because let’s face it, my husband and I were not, and would never be, pregnant. I would be pregnant. I would be sick on the couch, eating saltines, staring at a cursor blinking on an unfinished scene of my unfinished novel. The flu, I told my students, hives, pneumonia—anything to keep my condition secret until it appeared the condition would stick. I was the one subject to the probing hands of doctors, to needle pricks, and bloodletting. I was the one banned from alcohol, coffee, cold cuts, hot tubs, and yes, sushi, skydiving and lunar travel...
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About the physical and emotional burden of pregnancy and the impossibility of sharing the experience.
Excerpt:
One day I suggested to my husband that “maybe it would be okay if we tried.” I could have been talking about sushi, or skydiving, or lunar travel. Something safe and final. But the man’s face lit up with unambiguous joy.
I use the word “we” lightly here, because let’s face it, my husband and I were not, and would never be, pregnant. I would be pregnant. I would be sick on the couch, eating saltines, staring at a cursor blinking on an unfinished scene of my unfinished novel. The flu, I told my students, hives, pneumonia—anything to keep my condition secret until it appeared the condition would stick. I was the one subject to the probing hands of doctors, to needle pricks, and bloodletting. I was the one banned from alcohol, coffee, cold cuts, hot tubs, and yes, sushi, skydiving and lunar travel...
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Fruitful Territory
By Stories I Know You
Read my Mother's Day tribute "By Stories I Know You" on bookreporter.com
Sage Advice For Traveling Abroad With a Toddler
For anyone who has ever traveled a great distance with a little person (or is thinking about doing so).
Originally published on www.worldleap.co, fall 2016
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Originally published on www.worldleap.co, fall 2016
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Canyon
The Farallon Review Spring 2012
Excerpt:
I believed JJ when he said he could throw a rock across the canyon, just as I believed purple skies meant rain coming, and sparkly bits in the granite were fossilized fairy dust. I didn’t need him to prove it, but JJ seemed determined, so I went along.
Yellow dust caught in my nose and throat. We hid from the sun under Nana’s old parasol, and JJ carried a two-liter bottle of RC Cola under his arm like a football. I’d been living with Nana nearly three months and JJ for three weeks, since school started. But neither of us had been to the canyon, even though the canyon was everywhere: on t-shirts and coffee mugs down at the Exxon Mini-Station Store, on street signs with mile markers and arrows showing where to turn on the I-30. I told Nana I imagined the canyon like heaven, a place everyone wanted to get to. Only you could come back if you wanted and try to tell people in words what you saw. Nana seemed to think, no matter what I said, I was really talking about Daddy.
“Jip,” she said, “your daddy knew he was a bad one. Thought bad of himself, bad of others. Knew he’d do worse one day than he already done. What your mama did, what she did was no worse than putting down a rabid dog. A mercy to the dog, service to the community.”
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I believed JJ when he said he could throw a rock across the canyon, just as I believed purple skies meant rain coming, and sparkly bits in the granite were fossilized fairy dust. I didn’t need him to prove it, but JJ seemed determined, so I went along.
Yellow dust caught in my nose and throat. We hid from the sun under Nana’s old parasol, and JJ carried a two-liter bottle of RC Cola under his arm like a football. I’d been living with Nana nearly three months and JJ for three weeks, since school started. But neither of us had been to the canyon, even though the canyon was everywhere: on t-shirts and coffee mugs down at the Exxon Mini-Station Store, on street signs with mile markers and arrows showing where to turn on the I-30. I told Nana I imagined the canyon like heaven, a place everyone wanted to get to. Only you could come back if you wanted and try to tell people in words what you saw. Nana seemed to think, no matter what I said, I was really talking about Daddy.
“Jip,” she said, “your daddy knew he was a bad one. Thought bad of himself, bad of others. Knew he’d do worse one day than he already done. What your mama did, what she did was no worse than putting down a rabid dog. A mercy to the dog, service to the community.”
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Fashionably Late
This I Believe Series, 2009
How marrying a colorblind man made me more adventuresome in art and fashion.
Excerpt:
I have never been accused of being fashionable. That I was presentable at all in high school was a testament to my well-healed mother’s tireless prodding. In college a gaggle of roommates mothered me out of t-shirts and into blouses, only to find me backsliding daily into a pair of old sweats.
Probably, I thought myself above vanity, and consumerism. A woman, after all, is only so grand as her idea of herself, and sometimes much less. I see now my persistent stylelessness as a combination of genuine lazy indifference and a healthy squeeze of egotism. “I don’t care. I don’t care. Look at me, because I don’t care!”
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Excerpt:
I have never been accused of being fashionable. That I was presentable at all in high school was a testament to my well-healed mother’s tireless prodding. In college a gaggle of roommates mothered me out of t-shirts and into blouses, only to find me backsliding daily into a pair of old sweats.
Probably, I thought myself above vanity, and consumerism. A woman, after all, is only so grand as her idea of herself, and sometimes much less. I see now my persistent stylelessness as a combination of genuine lazy indifference and a healthy squeeze of egotism. “I don’t care. I don’t care. Look at me, because I don’t care!”
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Superfan
Women's Basketball Magazine Feature 2008
In which I describe the unique investment women’s basketball fans make in their teams, and the impact that investment on lucky players.
Excerpt:
Coaches, commentators and players alike speak of team chemistry as elusive and unquantifiable, (perhaps spiritual) gift of winning teams. They speak of senior leadership, of role players, of young talent, of seasoned coaches and inspired newbies. They rarely, if ever, consider external influences superfans have upon successful and growing programs. Now I don’t know for sure, but I propose that one rarely considered, but vital element of team chemistry comes not from within a program but from without, from superfans. Here’s my theory: Optimism, and its twin, Hope, are essential, bracing chemicals which supersfans, by their very presence, manufacture. It is, in part, this rarified injection of hope and optimism that lingers in silent gyms late at night, and bolsters the lungs of players through long, hot summer workouts, through the hellish purgatory of fall training, which greets each season anew in November, and remains through win and loss alike. It is this Hope and Optimism, which with a dozen other variables, will, for each team, breed success in its various forms: a shot at the West Coast Conference Championship, another trip to the Final Four? Secret ingredients, not so silent weapons, superfans.
Excerpt:
Coaches, commentators and players alike speak of team chemistry as elusive and unquantifiable, (perhaps spiritual) gift of winning teams. They speak of senior leadership, of role players, of young talent, of seasoned coaches and inspired newbies. They rarely, if ever, consider external influences superfans have upon successful and growing programs. Now I don’t know for sure, but I propose that one rarely considered, but vital element of team chemistry comes not from within a program but from without, from superfans. Here’s my theory: Optimism, and its twin, Hope, are essential, bracing chemicals which supersfans, by their very presence, manufacture. It is, in part, this rarified injection of hope and optimism that lingers in silent gyms late at night, and bolsters the lungs of players through long, hot summer workouts, through the hellish purgatory of fall training, which greets each season anew in November, and remains through win and loss alike. It is this Hope and Optimism, which with a dozen other variables, will, for each team, breed success in its various forms: a shot at the West Coast Conference Championship, another trip to the Final Four? Secret ingredients, not so silent weapons, superfans.
Nana's Library
Open To All (2007) ed. Molly Fisk--an anthology benefiting Nevada County Libraries
I wrote about my nana’s library for an anthology benefitting the Nevada County Libraries. You would have loved my nana, whose name was Dorothy Allen, a ranch foreman’s wife who, with only six of us to feed, still made enough food each night for twenty ranch hands. A great story teller, tough when she needed to be. I’d like to think she would have enjoyed my novels.
Excerpt:
Nana's library--the books she chose, the books that held her life--filled a higher purpose. They were her comfort, a balm for old age, an escape from the basement chill of our converted craft room, from the rasp of Granddad’s breath in the twin bed next to her. Page after page, long into the night, while the dog snored and Granddad wheezed, she’d read to find her youth again, her strength again, the rush of sex again. She smoked strong cigarettes, and loved strong men with years ahead of them before the stroke made them--made him--an angry wizened infant. The stroke that made them both dependent on their headstrong daughter and her loving mandates. Aerobics?! More fiber?! Less grease?!
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Excerpt:
Nana's library--the books she chose, the books that held her life--filled a higher purpose. They were her comfort, a balm for old age, an escape from the basement chill of our converted craft room, from the rasp of Granddad’s breath in the twin bed next to her. Page after page, long into the night, while the dog snored and Granddad wheezed, she’d read to find her youth again, her strength again, the rush of sex again. She smoked strong cigarettes, and loved strong men with years ahead of them before the stroke made them--made him--an angry wizened infant. The stroke that made them both dependent on their headstrong daughter and her loving mandates. Aerobics?! More fiber?! Less grease?!
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